Sometimes it seems like I ask the Lord to show me something and I don't see anything in any real quick turn around time. But other times I ask and Wow, He shows me something pretty profound and right when I ask for it.
I asked him what was hurting him?
Tonight we went to a skating party that Hayden and Zev got invitations to when school ended last week for them. It seems a local church rented out the skating rink in fort walton to throw a party for the kids as a celebration for finishing school. As I sat there I kept trying to find other kids or parents that I knew from school so I could have someone to sit and talk with but I and the kids could only recognize two others. So I kept to myself and figured they all must be from the regular elementary building or somewhere else as we are in a different building in a special program. It was a great night, our admission and every one else's was paid for, along with pizza, drinks, dessert and two hours of skating fun. As the night was ending I needed to thank someone for including my family in this celebration and I found a lady who seemed to be in the know? Yes, She told me that she was from the church that sponsored the event. I introduced myself and thanked her for inviting us. I told her that I really didn't recognize any but two of the kids. She said "one of our members has a son in your TD group at school so we wanted to include those kids as well but these kids are all either kids in crisis, or in orphan care awaiting foster hope"
My heart sank... As I replayed the last two hours in my mind. I never once saw a child that I wouldn't want to take home myself. Never heard one bad word. Never saw any arguments. And there weren't 5 or 10. This is the sick part! There were 50 or 60! They were black, white, boys, girls, they were between the ages of 4 or 5 to maybe 15.
They are good kids!!! This is what hurts him!!!!!!! Among many other things!
PARENTS THESE KIDS NEED YOU!! IF you do not want to be a parent, then quit being so selfish and do something about it! If it is too late then grow up and take some responsibility for your actions. It is not your childs fault that it was born. This is not a kitten that you can just leave and hope that someone takes good care of it. Fact of the matter is there aren't many places or people with the right intentions left. YOU, You made this baby. You gave it life, whether you should have or not it is here and God entrusted you to take care of it, to teach it to love. And YES, you will need to QUIT smoking, drinking, and you can NEVER under any circumstances cause or allow someone to hurt your babies or anything else that is harmful. You might need to shop on the clearance rack, thrift store or receive used items for yourself or even go without so that you can provide whatever your child needs. It is not about you anymore, it is about this little person who cannot make it without you! I am tired too, get over it, Be a parent!
We live in one of the most beautiful areas in the country, not only beautiful, but this area is in ok shape too! This is unacceptable! There is so much hurt around the world already, especially children and now we in such a healthy nation are contributing to it as well and it is all because of selfishness. No I am not saying all parents are failing. Reality is a good portion are...
What I seen tonite makes me hurt!
I will do whatever I need to do to take care of my children, to show them love, and keep us together in this fallen world. I am sorry Lord!
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